I'm not really trying to get myself down to a size 0, for one I think that's impossible and two its unrealistic. Weight loss is advertised everywhere. Women on the cover of magazines, actresses, singers, models, athletes who are all a size 5 or smaller really can put a damper on your self esteem. They are the role models for health and beauty.
When I was younger like at the age of 4-6 I was an average kid. But as I got older I gained a lot of weight. I had the belly and the chubby cheeks. Honestly, I don't remember ever feeling down on myself or hating the way I looked. Once I hit middle school I went through puberty and I got tall and was super active with P.E. and dance class and lost all that baby fat. I was pretty fit at a size 5 up until 11th grade when I lost my aunt to cancer. She was a big inspiration and support in my love for dance. School wasn't going well for me either. I fell into a pretty deep depression which I'm still working through, and gained a lot of weight. The heaviest I got was 185 lbs from my healthy weight of 128 lbs.
Since high school I've been able to loose about 30 lbs which is great progress but I want to make more. I'm not doing this to be like those girls in the magazines or on tv. I'm trying to be a better me than I was yesterday. To finish something that I've started. I feel like it'll make me happier and help me work through my depression.
I've tried a diet called the 17 Day Diet. It worked for awhile but the food you had to eat got boring after awhile. I've decided to not go on any particular diet and just make healthier choices and work out daily. Today is day one.. here is what I had for breakfast:
When I was younger like at the age of 4-6 I was an average kid. But as I got older I gained a lot of weight. I had the belly and the chubby cheeks. Honestly, I don't remember ever feeling down on myself or hating the way I looked. Once I hit middle school I went through puberty and I got tall and was super active with P.E. and dance class and lost all that baby fat. I was pretty fit at a size 5 up until 11th grade when I lost my aunt to cancer. She was a big inspiration and support in my love for dance. School wasn't going well for me either. I fell into a pretty deep depression which I'm still working through, and gained a lot of weight. The heaviest I got was 185 lbs from my healthy weight of 128 lbs.
Since high school I've been able to loose about 30 lbs which is great progress but I want to make more. I'm not doing this to be like those girls in the magazines or on tv. I'm trying to be a better me than I was yesterday. To finish something that I've started. I feel like it'll make me happier and help me work through my depression.
I've tried a diet called the 17 Day Diet. It worked for awhile but the food you had to eat got boring after awhile. I've decided to not go on any particular diet and just make healthier choices and work out daily. Today is day one.. here is what I had for breakfast:
It was very delicious! Now I'm going to get dressed and really start my day. Probably watch Nolan paint for a bit, play with the dog, help Nolan sand a dresser for a neighbor, exercise, and other random things.
Fingers crossed that I don't get too lazy as the case always is and I actually sweat my butt off!!
Fingers crossed that I don't get too lazy as the case always is and I actually sweat my butt off!!